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Don’t Say Quitters Never Prosper

11 Apr

So it’s been over a year since I gave up on this blog. The plan was to do a blog post everyday for 365 days. I made it to 99. Which, to be honest with you all, is longer than I expected to last. In the end I was in a rough time of my life. All I did was work. And I obsessed about people knowing how much I was working and I focused on it to an almost breaking point. I cried a lot that year. I had virtually no friends, and nothing to look forward to. I was so lonely. I wouldn’t say I was clinically depressed, I would never assume to know what true depression feels like. But I would say that I was in a version of my own definition of depression. I was sad and lonely and afraid of life. I wanted things to happen to me but I didn’t want to do them. There was a war going on within me everyday. I would tell my self to buck up and then run into a corner and cry my eyes out for hours because I hated myself. I wanted to change. But I was terrified of change. You see how that can tear a person apart from the inside? Each post on here was a grasp at the idea of happiness, that my life had some weight to it. I was hopeful, but not mentally ready for any of it.

Since I quit this blog so much has happened. Surprisingly if i had kept this blog up you and I would have seen me transform into a different person. It didn’t happen right away I stayed in my black hole for many more months after the last post of this blog. So here’s a recap of what happened to me after this blog.

Work. Cry. Black hole. Work. Cry. Black hole.

I went to Europe for 2 months. 14 Countries, a Cruise. Great food. Pseudo-great company. Great memories.

I was highly liked by many friends we made there, boosting my self-confidence to slightly above self-loathing.

I came to the realization that I love to travel.

I became really good friends (I believe the term is BFFs) with a girl I work with.

we got tattoos together. It would be my first. I don’t have any more. Yet.

I got dangerously close to being in a relationship with someone I’ve had a crush on for years.

My friend forced me to join Tinder. I met a really great guy. He became my boyfriend.

I’m in love.

I got an iPhone 5s!

That’s about it. I’m still contemplating the future of this blog. But as I type these words I feel myself releasing something. I don’t know what it is about typing this post but it feels so comfortable to me. And I feel myself wanting to continue. So something will come of this. Just not sure what yet. I’d love to do a travel blog, but I don’t have the time off or the resources to travel often enough. But we’ll see, something will come of it. I have hopes, and optimism for once.

In the end 22 was a good year. And the day I turned 23 I asked the world (via Facebook) to give me an even better year at 23. Within the month I started talking to my boyfriend. 23 has already been a great year, and I have so much more in store.

I leave you with something I just created out of boredom, I took the photo in the background, its of The Amalfi Coast. I thought it was vaguely related to the subject of this post.

LM

A Rule I Need to Live By

A Rule I Need to Live By

P.S. This is officially my 100th Blog Post. Yay me. Took me long enough…

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November 19th, 2012

22 Nov

PHOTO #76: Best Friends

So, I finally went out on Monday! Woohoo, my first time in over a month. I had a great time. We drank a lot…we talked a lot….and we cried a little. Yea. It’s hard not to bring up what you are most emotional about at the time when you’re most drunk.

I have known these two ladies since I was four years old. It’s going on nineteen years now! We’ve had our ups and downs. Treated each other not so greatly. But, in the end, we gravitate back together. It’s hard not to when there’s so much history there. We’ve been through life changing events together. Life, death, and everything in between. We went to the same elementary school (JK to 8) and the same highschool. I think we’ve stayed pretty close through all of it. I mean that’s a bond that really can’t be broken. There’s no way to forget 19 years of your life, really. We’ve helped each other through hard times, and supported one another’s decisions, no matter how wrong we may have thought they were.

I kind of want to do a before and after photo collage of us. Because I know there’s a picture of just the three of us when we’re around five or six, and I just spent a long time looking for it, with no luck. But I know it’s around somewhere. I think that would be a fun thing to see. How we’ve changed, and how we’ve stayed the same. So that’s one of my next craft ideas…we’ll see if I actually finish this one…

Accomplishment of the day: Going outside on my day off and having a social life!

October 3rd, 2012

4 Oct

PHOTO #29: Favourite Boots

No audit today, but I have a bad feeling about tomorrow…

Today was okay, nothing special. Some writer came into the theatre to do some sort of book signing. I had never heard of him, and didn’t think he was well known, until someone told me he was the writer of the Percy Jackson books. I have never read them, but at least I knew he was more popular that I had first assumed.

These are my favourite boots, I have had them for about a year now. I have worn them almost every day. They came to the UK with me, and Washington, twice, and NYC. You’ll be surprised to know: they are from H&M! Haha. I have been wearing them with my other outfits, but you don’t get to see them, because I don’t have someone to take picks for me. So, I thought I would give you a different angle. These are my polka-dot tights, H&M. The socks are from Marks Work Warehouse. The skirt is Mendocino, on sale for $10!

Ending on a sad note, today is a very depressing day for me. Someone who was very important to me died three years ago today. And I haven’t gone one day without thinking about him. He was a big positive influence in my life in highschool. And was the first big loss I had ever dealt with. It was hard for a long time. I still get really sad sometimes, but it is easier after some time. There are things people say that remind me of him, and things that happen in the day that make me think about him. But, I try to stay positive, and remember that part of who I am is because of him.

October 2nd, 2012

3 Oct

PHOTO #28: Movies, and More Movies

Every morning that I go to work, I have this moment of panic as I enter the theatre, we are due for an audit from Head Office, very soon. I don’t work well when someone is watching my every move. I am super confident, if I know what I am doing and I get to do it alone. No problems. The second you put someone there, who is grading, or judging what I’m doing, I freeze up. I hate it. Especially not knowing when it’s coming. It’ll ruin my whole day when it finally happens.

After work today I had plans to see The Words with a fellow employee/new friend. But, there was a lot of time between the end of my shift at 6ish, and hers at 9:30. So, I went to see Looper. Which was my plan all along, I said so yesterday. Looper was good. I really enjoyed it. I found myself having to remind myself that the main character was JGL. He was really good as a young Bruce Willis. Makes me wonder if he studied Bruce Willis’s older films…He must have, right? Either way, he’s a great actor. I love him. Seriously.

When my friend and I went down to the theatre to watch The Words, we found out that The Perks Of Being a Wallflower was also playing. So, we decided to see that instead. It was a great film. I absolutely loved it. If you’re going to see one film this year, let that be it. Most artsy films tend to show the most interesting stuff in the preview, and then the actual film is a snore fest. But, this was great from beginning to end. I was laughing, and sharing the feelings of the main characters as they went through things. I’ve never read the book, but I imagine it was great. If I take anything from that film. Also, the soundtrack was amazing. Downloading it right now.

All-in-all, I had a great day.

Celebrity sighting: Jamie Campbell Bower (Sweeney Todd, Twilight, RocknRolla) He came to the theatre to see Looper. Saw the showing before mine.

P.S. Jacket is H&M, everything is H&M again actually…

October 1st, 2012

2 Oct

PHOTO #27: New Pants

Officially starting a new month of posts! Yay! I look back and I think, making these posts has actually made time pass more slowly for me. I feel like I started this blog a long time ago. When really it was less than a month ago. So that, I guess, is more reason for me to continue blogging.

I haven’t told anyone that I know about my blog yet. I don’t think it’s because I’m embarrassed by it or anything. But, anything I do I usually get a lot of negative feedback from people I know. And I feel I am just saving myself from that. It’s not like I’m hiding it or anything. I use my real name, my actual email, I have even linked things from here to my Pinterest, and my face is everywhere. Which my sister has admitted to seeing. This is just a place for me to release. I get to tell my story of what happened that day. Even if no one is reading. It’s sort of like this blog is the friend that I tell everything to. Since I don’t really have one to tell in person. Not that I don’t have friends. I’m just more of a listener. I’m not good at putting things into words. When I’m feeling a roller coaster of emotions and someone asks me how I am, my answer is almost always “Oh, nothing. I’m fine.” I love to listen to people, and their stories. Some people are such good story tellers. Whether it is something that happened to them that morning, or a funny story they saw on the internet. The way they say it, the way they order their sentences, it all flows so perfectly. I can’t do that. But, that’s okay.

I went to see Looper today with my sister. 1. Because I haven’t seen a movie at the theatre in a while. 2. Because I needs my Joseph Gordon-Levitt fix! We went down to the theatre and were waiting in line to buy tickets. Now when I say “buy” there is actually no money involved, since I work at a theatre I get free passes with each pay-check (don’t you want to be my friend now?). So, we were in line, and saw that Premium Rush was on around the same time and decided to go to that instead. I still got my Joseph Gordon-Levitt, and I figure this one will be out of theatres sooner than Looper. Plus, I’ll just go see Looper tomorrow after my shift 😛 .

The new pants I bought today are from Forever 21 for $27.80. A little pricey for me, but I couldn’t put them back. I have always loved the “salt-and-pepper” grey, and have been looking for pants like this (they are skinny but not tight [I hate flared pants and haven’t worn any in over eight years] and higher waisted) for a long time. I plan on wearing them at work tomorrow. It’s my “look-I-don’t-have-to-wear-black-pants-even-though-I-do-like-the-rest-of-you” look. Super! Excited!

Celebrity sighting of the day: Paul Gross. Usually I see him at the theatre I work at (when we got “Gunless” exclusively he came in like everyday for a week). But, today I saw him going up the escalator while me and my sister were leaving the theatre we went to. He theatre cheated on me!

September 29th, 2012

30 Sep

PHOTO #25: Nuit Blanche

So, from what I remember the last couple of years I’ve been to Nuit Blanche, I have not had the greatest time. Two years ago, it took us five hours to walk down Yonge Street (Something that should take twenty minutes). And to top it off, all we saw were some people carrying a cardboard robot. So I didn’t have high expectations for this year, and I wasn’t disappointed. I got exactly what I was expecting. Me and a friend took off alone because all our other friends were sitting around drinking, and wasting time. So, the most ground covered was with just me and her alone. Everything in this picture I saw with her. Once we finally met up with the other group, we spent the rest of the night waiting for more people.

Plus Side:

-Hung out with friends

-Mixed an excellent Rye and Ginger for myself

-Got free coffee

Down Side:

-Didn’t see much

-Spilled Ginger Ale in my bag some how, almost ruining my passport and Ipod

-left early and missed out on Golden Griddle (I was really hungry all night, and they went after I left 😦 )

There’s also a peek of what my outfit was for the night. In keeping with the fall theme I wore lots of layers, and my favourite jean jacket, that I bought for my sister and then she practically never wore it. So I took it back. You can’t really see the necklace but it’s another one of my own creations. I made the rock out of dollar store self hardening clay and painted it black. Then top coated it with nail polish. Yea, I couldn’t find my glaze, so I improvised.

September 17th, 2012

18 Sep

PHOTO #13: Finishing and Starting Crafts

Unfortunately, although I should tell you I expected nothing more, my friend clearly forgot about the plans we had today. She does this often. We had talked last wednesday about going out, because I had talked to her about how boring things had been for me lately. I was excited about actually doing something. She told me she would be getting off work around two. So, today I was ready to finally do something. I woke up pretty late, but when I checked my phone, nothing. I texted her, and can you believe what she replied? “Oh, I was planning on going to the mall to return some clothes, wanna join me?” SERIOUSLY? I wanted to do something fun because I was bored, and she wants me to come return clothes with her. I did go, because I didn’t want to waste another day inside. Plus, it was a chance to shop. Which I love doing. And we tried a new Burrito place near our houses, they were delicious. So, it wasn’t a horrible day, but nothing happened that was photo worthy. 😦

Afterwards, I came home and did some more crafts. As you can see I finished the necklace from last nights post! It’s the one on the left. Although, I’m not one hundred percent happy with it, so it may change. The skeleton key is covered in crazy glue and gold glitter I got from the dollar store. And on the right is another work in progress that I started today. Same skeleton key (I have a few of them lying around the house from a movie promo) but I’m in the process of nail polishing this one into a cute pink colour. The fabric feather I made by glueing two layers together and then fraying them. When I tried only using one layer the feather fell apart. The little butterfly in the bottom I may not use, it looks a little childish. We’ll see. All in all, another boring day.